Posts by All or nothing

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Waking up to TTATT: Blessing or Curse?

by Jules Saturn in

if you take the red pill, you'll have knowledge, you'll be awakened, aware of reality, you'll have freedom.. if you take the blue pill, you stay in your bubble, wearing rose colored glasses, and feel security in an illusion.. taking the red pill isn't something that's easy to do.

to accept that everything around you is an illusion built up on lies or half truths.

but hey, it might feel good to be aware and break free from this illusion.

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"Well I'll be completely honest, I feel like I've always had doubts, like for me it was hard to be convinced that I was in the one true religion and try to convince people of that through field service. But I've always had questions, I was always questioning stuff"

i can can relate to the above quote, I remember when I was pioneering we had a bible student asking how many students we converted to the religion and we had a big Zero! THIS really bothered me because you wonder in jw speak why the Angels weren't helping us get success! Being born in I was always wondering about certain loopholes like i would call them. Why could pioneers count time on quick builds but not regular publishers? Why was the standards to progress different in different congregations? Why is there a spiritual ladder ppl are climbing? Where is this love that is the supposed identifier of the true religion?? WHAT the H was brother Morris THINKING about that RANT at the annual meeting 2 or 3 years ago...baffling. Well we all woke up and it's time to live in the present and enjoy our REAL LIFE NOW!!!!!

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How Are Ex Elders Treated In The Congregation?

by minimus in

jw
friends

are they pretty much left alone?

are they respected for their having been elders at one time?

are they treated like crap?.

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The elders in the congregation my husband used to be an elder in, wouldn't even look at him or speak to him after he served there 8 plus years. Hypocrites! At some point he was fed up and so disgruntled that he told me there was no need for him to go there to be treated like he was invisible. He didn't do anything to not be serving, some sort of mix up when we moved to serve a local congregation that needed our help, that I can't reveal details without possible outing us. No one - his formal elder buddies...would stick out their selfish necks to help him so they just thought the loving thing to do is just ignore him till we went away- so we did. Their unloving behavior served to wake me up- so thank you selfish bastards!

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An honest question for those who were "born-in"

by stuckinarut2 in

just wanted to ask a question of those who were born in as i was.. how did you feel to have been "privileged to have been born into the only true faith - the truth"?.

did this make you feel confident, or proud - or perhaps arrogant?.

how did you reconcile the fact that 99% of the earth's population was not born "into the truth"?.

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I did feel "priviledged" to have been born in and have the wonderful hope for the future that I whole heartedly believed up until 4 years ago. I also felt that with priviledge comes responsibility to help as many as I can learn about our wonderful hope. I seriously was such a hook line and sinker perfect jw. It seemed so simple to me, scriptures like Mathew 24:14. Live your life the best way you can, following bible principles like treat others the way you want to be treated, put kingdom interests first...etc etc. I never believed a loving god will kill so many innocent people and unbeknownst to me that was my first doubt... I remember clearly at age 4 sincerely asking my mother if I could take my baby doll with me at the great tribulation. Looking back I mourn the childhood I never had...how cruel to fill children with all that FOG. One thing that has always been a problem for me even when I was a really hard core perfect JW was this oppressive idea to live for this unknown future date of the end of the world, not knowing if it was next week, next month, next year or my case at the end of the 1900's, next century,lol. Not being able to make plans for your future, waiting to start your life- this elledged "real" life they always speak of, I realize how ridiculous it all it now, but clearly remember how I was in high school and speaking with my guidance counselor, who thought I was completely bonkers not to aspire to a college degree. Well I rambled enough for now...😔

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Saying hello for first time

by pimojw in

i have been sneakily looking at this forum, almost every day, ever since it began!

it has taken me till now to actually register and contribute.

(actually i did register with a different name in the beginning but never commented).. i am a pimo elder with a fairly long history of senior "positions" in the organization.

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Welcome, I also lurked a long time before slowly posting, sometimes I feel like - wow someone feels EXACTLY how I feel and it's really affirming. What you said about the GB- did it start during the 3 part wt where they completely changed the core belief that they (7 obscure) men are the faithful slave- not the 144,000? I read that article 3-4 times, prayed about it, endured the wt studies on it and could not resolve the truth in those articles. I simply saw it as them taking more power on and we Lowly ones having to believe cuz they said it...thoughts?

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lf you could be god would you and why and what would you change?

by atomant in

not sure if this question has been asked before but thought it would be interesting to read peoples response..

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We watched the movie last night about Cambodia - "first they killed my father" and this very topic was discussed, between my husband and I-even when I was a faithful brainwashed jw- I could never, never accept the jw reasons why suffering is being tolerated by the person we called god. Also if we as humans were supposedly created in gods image, so that means the human ability to slaughter innocent people, according to jw beliefs originated with god.

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How Many Here EVER Considered Going Back To Meetings?

by minimus in

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friends

once i left ,i was done.

in over 10 years i didn't return except for my mother's funeral.

did you ever re enter the kh after you left?.

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Old navy- how can I best wake up my still in family that they are in fact part of a high control cult as you put it?

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last psychology session tomorrow

by Phoebe in

jw
friends

so tomorrow is my last appointment with my psychologist.

we are going to commemorate it by giving each other a letter.. sept 2016 i sat, a quivering wreck, in her waiting room.

i was terrified.

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I look foreword every night at the end of my day to read what is on this board and this post has been so encouraging! Congratulations on making it through the fog into the bright light of happiness!! We deserve to be content in the present and that should be our focus. Being also raised in this cult, I have contemplated going to a therapist about the indoctrination we have been force fed. How did you choose yours?

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Study article for this week, more self delusion

by stillin in

"set your heart on spiritual treasures.

" i have been thinking about this during the past week.

i always knew that there were no treasures on earth.

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"I was friendly, wholesome, honest and made every effort to be encouraging and loyal"

i almost said word for word this exact statement about us. It made no sense to mess with us- cuz we were the perfect wt drones. I prayed every day for years for jah to resolve the problem that was endangering us spiritually- doesn't the bible say he won't let u be tested beyond what we can bear? And he answers prayers that are according to his will and purpose, etc. it reminds me of others who put him to the test without any results who have posted here and made me realize - WE ARENT CRAZY- flee from the cult!

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What Simple Pleasures Do You Enjoy Since Leaving Watchtower?

by pale.emperor in

what simple pleasures do you enjoy since leaving watchtower?

here's some of mine, in no particular order:.

a cigar: i dont smoke cigarettes at all, but i do enjoy a good cigar from time to time.

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- reading fifty shades of grey without an ounce of guilt

-not stressing about field service time every month

-not worrying about "satan" and if he is going to "get" me

-Enjoying life instead of just enduring it.

- Living in the present not for the "future"

i feel more free and easy going now🤗

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A Short Life Story - Part 4 (Finale)

by pale.emperor in

a continuation from part 3, which is here: https://www.jehovahs-witness.com/topic/4807117397557248/short-life-story-part-3#!#4918071166763008.

my wife had settled into a routine of waking up at 6am each day, cleaning (so no chance of a lie in for me or our daughter with the vacuum cleaner going), eating very little, picking the skin off her lips while she sits there in a trance obsessing over things that are out of our control and dont matter anyway.

she never did return to work.

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Your story originally about the laptop made me realize how important it is to hide my tablet when our families are around- I still can't believe your sister in law went all Scotland Yard on you- who does that- wow